Saturday, November 14, 2009
My life sucks. Wonder how the heck I'm still goin on. I'm just composing lots of metal. Angry angry metal. Thank God there's music....
I don't know what the heck I'm on, but if I can keep this up for 4 years I'll actually be able to make some money =O
I don't know what the heck I'm on, but if I can keep this up for 4 years I'll actually be able to make some money =O
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kat is not pleased.
Kat is not pleased.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Ok I think I'm getting too emo. Looking down at the recent entries it's all gloomy and doomy emoness. Cheer up emo Kat....
Tomorrow is a holiday so I'm having fun now. Hmm or maybe as much fun I can have with no one online cos it's 1pm in Singapore. Blah.
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Tomorrow is a holiday so I'm having fun now. Hmm or maybe as much fun I can have with no one online cos it's 1pm in Singapore. Blah.
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Emo ramblings
Monday, November 09, 2009
Haiz. I've been feeling philosophical the past few weeks. What is the meaning of fairness? How can it just be defined by an individual point of view? If you get something that doesnt sit right how can you just tilt and squint until it "becomes fair"? I guess I'm idealistic so I want to believe that there's an absolute standard of right and wrong. Is there?
For that matter, what is "good" and "bad"? It has to be more than doing what feels the best for you. I could go out and murder the person I can't stand or I could stand on the street selling my organs. These are superridiculousextreme examples of course. Is goodness about making yourself or others happy? Self-gratification or self-sacrifice? Personal integrity or denial of self? Or is it none of these and just about your devotion to a moral code? Is that the reason we set down so many rules defining the boundaries? Why we turn our world into a black-white morality, because it's safer to completely stay on one side of the fence? Then we don't have to carry the weight of our sins. Sure it's safer to stick to the book, but I wonder if we really live at all like that. I just wonder if there's something more. What would you do if it were a choice between your ideals and your sense of self?
And I mean we're all only human. It's inevitable we'll suck or rock at some point. Is our journey here supposed to be about how we mix our black and white? No one can run away from one side, though I think most of us hope to come out with a lighter shade of grey.
....Just something stuff that's been making me think. Trying understand why we draw so many lines, and whether we're making divisions that don't exist. I wonder if I even know myself. I'm 20 years old but I still feel like a teenager D=
For that matter, what is "good" and "bad"? It has to be more than doing what feels the best for you. I could go out and murder the person I can't stand or I could stand on the street selling my organs. These are super
And I mean we're all only human. It's inevitable we'll suck or rock at some point. Is our journey here supposed to be about how we mix our black and white? No one can run away from one side, though I think most of us hope to come out with a lighter shade of grey.
....Just something stuff that's been making me think. Trying understand why we draw so many lines, and whether we're making divisions that don't exist. I wonder if I even know myself. I'm 20 years old but I still feel like a teenager D=
Monday, November 02, 2009
Happy 3 months=)
Friday, October 30, 2009
3 more midterms to go.....and a paper to write...
Managed to top college writing class for a essay about mortality.....I def wouldn't have gotten an A if I wrote that crap in singapore. Hehehe.....
Composed more stuff....yay...
Managed to top college writing class for a essay about mortality.....I def wouldn't have gotten an A if I wrote that crap in singapore. Hehehe.....
Composed more stuff....yay...
Monday, October 26, 2009
Today's the start of midterms week...yay....
Haven't really studied much, just doing some last minute reading. Got perc test in about an hour. Hope I can get through that cos I'm the slowest in class (see la try and be clever and end up you're the only one who doesn't play the instrument...diao...). Then tomorrow there's a test for my Film Scorin class. They aren't teaching much music stuff, it's all about the film making process. Blahh. Then wednesday......crap it's Harmony. Thursday has Reading, and Friday is ET and possibly a celebratory drinking party. Then saturday gonna (finally) go present shopping. Aaaand monday have to hand in that damn College writing paper. Writing about light and darkness....blah.....
Feeling kind of down the past few days. It's nothing I can't handle, but I hope things get better. It seems to be hell as far as I can see, but there's always a choice, isn't there? There's no such thing as certainty. Destiny keeps on being rewritten.... It's pointless to get worked up over things that might or might not be. And when you add in variables like accidents or miracles it becomes even harder to imagine. I guess...just keep praying...that somehow the pieces fall into place, and it's not a twisted picture at the end...
3 things. Those are all I want. Please let my wish come true...
Haven't really studied much, just doing some last minute reading. Got perc test in about an hour. Hope I can get through that cos I'm the slowest in class (see la try and be clever and end up you're the only one who doesn't play the instrument...diao...). Then tomorrow there's a test for my Film Scorin class. They aren't teaching much music stuff, it's all about the film making process. Blahh. Then wednesday......crap it's Harmony. Thursday has Reading, and Friday is ET and possibly a celebratory drinking party. Then saturday gonna (finally) go present shopping. Aaaand monday have to hand in that damn College writing paper. Writing about light and darkness....blah.....
Feeling kind of down the past few days. It's nothing I can't handle, but I hope things get better. It seems to be hell as far as I can see, but there's always a choice, isn't there? There's no such thing as certainty. Destiny keeps on being rewritten.... It's pointless to get worked up over things that might or might not be. And when you add in variables like accidents or miracles it becomes even harder to imagine. I guess...just keep praying...that somehow the pieces fall into place, and it's not a twisted picture at the end...
3 things. Those are all I want. Please let my wish come true...